I’ll write what has been bugging me for years. Low-key what I’ve been told makes me mad, and I don’t know why. Maybe I’m stupid as usual.Sometime after I got dumped, she supposedly apologizes to me. Nothing wrong though, right? I thought i…

Doing the usual routine that I do, I run into an old friend of mine. They asked me if I still cried for her. I told them no, even though I will admit... I do want to at times. Then they tell me to not worry about it. Everybody has been in…

I tend to care the very small things that may seem insignificant. I make it a big deal, and I know that often doesn't help. Especially if it drags me down emotionally. So why I keep worrying about it? I... Do not know. It does make me upse…

I don't want the thought that I made a mistake.It's my battle anyway... She never cared And suddenly she shows up? Nah dude. Go away.The whole time I've been fighting myself and she wants to "help" or probably nag at me for what l've been …

I try to get myself distracted with other things to forget her. Lately I've been trying to focus more on improving the church, playing lots of Fortnite, and practicing bass again! But dude... Out of nowhere I hear information about her... …

I'm just gonna send do a voice memo and then hopefully the captions do get it correctly and I'll just copy and paste it. I don't know anymore but anyway yeah I'm salty about it. I'm still salty about it. And I don't think I'll ever get ove…

One of my favorite things about The Legend of Zelda is the relationship between Link and the princess. Probably my favorite portrayal is in Skyward Sword. In that game, I like how Zelda was very flirtatious with Link. And Link was the obed…

We're always on our phones. We have it with us all the time. No matter how busy we get, we always find time to use it. Our phones really gives us instant access to talk to people. And yet, you're not the one being replied to. You patiently…

It’s not often that I go to this type of events. But I went hesitantly just to be with a friend, but when I arrive there, I kind of regret it. Just seeing all these people smoking and drinking to have fun; I honestly do not vibe with that.…

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Am I going crazy? Why do I still think about her after everything what happened? It's not that I miss her, but do I? I had no romantic experience prior of dating her. My first relationship went down very bad, and didn't even get the "prope…

I saw this old writing I had in my Google Drive from 8-28-19. So it has been nine months since my last heartbreak. It was really though, and hard to accept. Felt like my world was ending. No point of trying again. Throughout time, I've hea…

Prehaps it was too good to be true. When I first met her, I thought she was amazing, a friend I can vent out to, being myself, honest, and overall comfortable. While she was initially just there for support after my first ex broke up with …

Baby fever running wild lately. Especially around town, it's more common to have an unplanned pregnancy! I however, have a plan whenever I do have an offspring of my own. I did say this on my Facebook profile a couple of times, but I think…

You know, it's so wild to me that as soon as someone breaks up, they immediately get into another relationship As if I wasn't their only option. They had a backup plan. Meanwhile I'd go years without one after a breakup. It really boggles …

It's pretty rare that I get bad days. And when I do, it feels so heavy on my shoulders. Makes me feel physically tired. It makes me overthinking like crazy, probably even longer than when I overthink for other reasons. That gets mentally e…

Maybe the things I'm doing is and will probably never be enough. That's okay though. It's an opportunity to do something else instead, yeah? What's the point anyway if my efforts won't be recognized and acknowledged? I should stop complete…

Just to type down what I'm feeling: Seeing them make feel both happy and sad. Happy to see how pretty the city lights are at night. Happy to be able to see them as I listen to soft and bubbly music. But sad that I'm not with anyone to shar…

Before I start, this entry will contain spoilers for Doctor Strange 2 (and other MCU movies and/or TV shows), so if you haven't seen it yet, go do it! Or if you don't care about spoilers, then read along. You have been warned. The idea of …

God will remove people that will hold you back in life. People that will prevent you from growing with God. As if he knew what was up, and I was too naive and heartbroken to even realize and find the deeper meaning. If God knew why I loved…

Alternate reality. Seems like a big topic nowadays, especially for the MCU movies! Spiderman No Way Home! And an ending I won't spoil. But all that ties to what I've been thinking. The idea of what could be happening if a different choice …

Living my world in peace until the monster is releaed. She enters the scene with bad vibes that cannot be described. Guess she wants my attention? Then I'll play a game of prevention. A loud conversation will not improve the situation. I c…

I get that thought in my mind about my own worth. I know everyone has a different definition of it, but I wanna focus on my own. I do worry at times what others think of me. People will always judge me no matter what, and that's something …

I know I shouldn't be worried about it, but why do I worry about it? I feel silly by thinking about it all the time, but I can't help myself. My patience feels like it's running low. And everything that life has been throwing at me feels s…

The idea of the perfect anything. Computer, phone, home, car, or even job. But those things are temporary as those things can change with more technology available, or you may have found more interests in other things. But what about in a …

As much as I want to be wanted, it feels like I'm very undesirable for many reasons. Of course nobody is perfect and won't ever be, but I feel like I have so many flaws, done so many bad things, hurt people for my benefits, and more. First…

The feeling of knowing someone wants you for who you are. More than a friendship way, a romantical one. Knowing that the other person is mad about you. It's so satisfying and really motivating you to become a better person for her. The fee…

That one shot everyone gets. Wether it's good or bad, it's a choice we have to make in life. That choice can make or break your life. It's a scary thought, but exciting at the same time, hoping for the best if your decision was correct. An…

Trust is an important aspect in life and could bring so many benefits. Benefits that both parties can take advantage of. It can in so many ways, like financial growth, academic progress, business partners, and yes, romantic experience. I k…

Getting noticed by the person you want is extremely hard. I see others do it so easily, but it's all rocket science for me! The way others handle when they get noticed are like professionals, and they seem to get what they want. Man, I wis…