Getting noticed by the person you want is extremely hard. I see others do it so easily, but it's all rocket science for me! The way others handle when they get noticed are like professionals, and they seem to get what they want. Man, I wish I could be like that! But, it never goes for me like that when I do get noticed.
Those rare moments I get noticed, well... I'm not treated right. But why? Is it how I look? How I talk? The way how I approach the person? I still don't understand why. They don't even take me seriously. I get treated like a little kid, or just ignores me afterwards like nothing happened. Moments like that is what drives me away from human interaction. So the next thing to do is online dating, right? It's much better than human interaction? Ha ha ha!! *sigh*
I tried so many services, and I didn't get a single interaction there at all. Okay, maybe bots, but I thought I was gonna get interactions there, but I never did! I used Tinder, Met Me, Bumble, Facebook Dating, and not a single match. Is it my profile? My pictures? My bio? I have no idea, and at this point, I don't care. It hurts me knowing that I'm not worthy of being noticed. Seeing others getting matched as soon as they join, but me with those accounts for over a year and no luck at all.
So here I am, not knowing what to do. And still scarred by my last relationship and everything what she told me. I told her about my experience, and she told me the biggest lies. "You should've hit me up! I would definitely give you a chance!" And "I would've matched with you on those sites, damn!" No you wouldn't, because you'd leave me! *sigh*
I don't know, I just want to be noticed, that's all. And for me to be treated as well like a normal person and not like a weirdo, or a child. I get looked down very often and it hurts me not getting a proper chance. I... I... Just give me a chance to shine, despite my shyness and awkwardness...
