Before I start, this entry will contain spoilers for Doctor Strange 2 (and other MCU movies and/or TV shows), so if you haven't seen it yet, go do it! Or if you don't care about spoilers, then read along. You have been warned.
The idea of a multiverse has always intrigued me! As explained in Loki, there's a main timeline, but when we make a small change from that timeline, a new universe is created. That universe is now separate and the resulting actions are completely different. It got me thinking the possibilities of how things could turn out if something else happened instaed in life. Like what if I got a different car, or if I went to a different middle school. The possibilities are endless! And actually really fun to think about. But during the events of Doctor Strange 2, I saw something in him that I could relate to. Honestly made me cry.
In the first Doctor Strange, before he got his powers, he was dating this woman named Christine. Seeing them together just reminded me of something IRL that has similarities with a previous relationship I had. Though Strange was really arrogant, and often a smartass, he had genuine care for Christine, even though he didn't like to admit that. After the car accident that destroyed his hand's nerves, his career as a surgeon basically ended, and pushed everything way from him, including Christine. Fast forward, he gets his powers, and gets a small tatse of the multiverse with Spider Man years later. In No Way Home, we see alternate versions of Spider Man, but all with similar beginnings and motivations. But all have slight differences. That got me thinking and wanted to explore more...
In episode 4 of What If, we see an alternate event for Doctor Strange where he didn't get his hands destroyed, but his heart instead. No, not the actual heart, but a person he cares about. Yes, Christine. In that alternate universe, Strange takes her in the same car he would get into the accident in. The accident happens just like in the original timeline, but this time, Christine dies. Strange being so hurt, he still gets his powers, but the motivations is to bring her back to life. Once he masters the Mystic Arts, he tries to go back in time from the moment of the accident with hope to prevent Chrstine's death. Unfortunately, his plan failed and she ends up getting killed. Strange tries again, altering other small events that could prevent her death. But no matter how many times he tried, every possible solution, all ends up killing Christine. Why can't he be with her? Later on it is revealed that her death is an Absolute Point in that universe's timeline. Meaning that her death must happen in order to keep the universe in check. Altering an Absolute Point can cause that universe's reality to collapse. Strange refusing to accept that, he successfully alters the Absolute Point, but causes reality to collapse as warned. Yes, Strange finally prevented Christine's death, but reality is getting destroyed, eventually destroying her. So was it really all worth it?
Back to the main timeline, in the beginning of Doctor Strange 2, he attends a wedding. Who's wedding? Christine's. We see in the movie how much it actually hurts him. Seeing the woman you still love, still hoping there may be a chance to make it work out, just not end up happening. Christine herself already made up her mind and has no intentions to go back with Strange. Felling upset, he still fends off foes and helping people. When he meets America Chavez, she has the ability to travel the multiverse. After Strange and Chavez get nearly killed by the Scarlett Witch, Chavez accientally opens a portal to an alternate universe, where both Strange and Chavez can escape. We see in that timeline, it's very different. But one thing that has not changed at all, is that universe's Strange and Christine didn't work out. Why? Same as the main timeline. When main Strange and alternate Christine meet, she automatically bursts his bubble of having to date an alternate version of her. Later on the film, Strange gets sent to another universe, and guess what? Him and Christine aren't a thing either! Really unfortunate...
So after seeing all that, it makes me think, no matter what alternate timeline happens, for Strange, he can never seem to be with Christine. Because either of his arrogance, or she ends up getting killed. That got me thinking of me and this one girl I thought I end up dating, never ended up happening. And after seeing Strange ging to multiple universes and timelines, him and Christine were just never meant to be, just like me and the girl I onced loved. I really felt Strange's pain not being able to be with the woman he wants. And I cried at the movies of course, even though Doctor Strange 2 is an action movie, lol.
A question that was asked in the movie is: are you happy? A simple question, but with a complex answer. At first, it doesn't seem like that I'm happy because I'm still upset that I couldn't make this girl mine. But after going through other adventures, events, and getting new experience and knowledge, and with so many emotional hurdles, I've come to terms that yes, I am happy. I already accept the fact that me and her may never be a thing, but at least remaining friends with her is probably for the better. (And to prevent from the universe gettig destroyed!) Maybe God has something better in store for me. Hopefully a new lover I can call her mine for once in my life. I'm also grateful with everything I have in life. Friends and family that care for me, getting the latest games, and of course, my relationship with God is improving, no longer feeling lonely. Not everything is about romantic love. Enjoying life as is without a partner is good before you engange in a romantic relationship. Just like at the end of Doctor Strange 2, life can continue as normal, with new advetures, new friends, all await in the not so distant future.
