Just to type down what I'm feeling:
Seeing them make feel both happy and sad. Happy to see how pretty the city lights are at night. Happy to be able to see them as I listen to soft and bubbly music.
But sad that I'm not with anyone to share that moment. And let those intrusive thoughts get to me. Feels so lonely.
Having both feelings just feels like they clash, but they work so well together. It's both optimistic and gloomy. I pray to the Lord that everything can go out fine.
