Maybe the things I'm doing is and will probably never be enough. That's okay though. It's an opportunity to do something else instead, yeah? What's the point anyway if my efforts won't be recognized and acknowledged? I should stop completely and see what happens. I'm just wasting my time and energy. I feel so overwhelmed for caring things that don't care how I'm feeling.
Need more self love rather than getting someone else's love. God's love is all I need anyway, so what else can I ask more? I don't need a woman's affection... I don't. Not that nobody wanted my affection, then I'll just give it to myself. I don't need anybody but God, and myself.
Sometimes I hate being emotional and letting my emotions ruin many nights for me. If I can't get the comfort, and attention I want, then I need to do that for myself. I need to stop hoping to get that from someone who I hope I can get a head rub, and to tell me things will get better.
Well, note to self: things will get better. If she won't recognize your work, I will! I'm proud of you man, and God must be too. Keep it up, you don't need her attention. You can go on by yourself, just God's strength is needed to move on.
... Yeah I'm just talking to myself, but if that's what I need to keep myself up, then so be it.
