Song in question of the entry: Aún - song and lyrics by Belanova | Spotify

Am I going crazy? Why do I still think about her after everything what happened? It's not that I miss her, but do I? I had no romantic experience prior of dating her. My first relationship went down very bad, and didn't even get the "prope…

I saw this old writing I had in my Google Drive from 8-28-19. So it has been nine months since my last heartbreak. It was really though, and hard to accept. Felt like my world was ending. No point of trying again. Throughout time, I've hea…

Prehaps it was too good to be true. When I first met her, I thought she was amazing, a friend I can vent out to, being myself, honest, and overall comfortable. While she was initially just there for support after my first ex broke up with …

Baby fever running wild lately. Especially around town, it's more common to have an unplanned pregnancy! I however, have a plan whenever I do have an offspring of my own. I did say this on my Facebook profile a couple of times, but I think…

You know, it's so wild to me that as soon as someone breaks up, they immediately get into another relationship As if I wasn't their only option. They had a backup plan. Meanwhile I'd go years without one after a breakup. It really boggles …

It's pretty rare that I get bad days. And when I do, it feels so heavy on my shoulders. Makes me feel physically tired. It makes me overthinking like crazy, probably even longer than when I overthink for other reasons. That gets mentally e…

Maybe the things I'm doing is and will probably never be enough. That's okay though. It's an opportunity to do something else instead, yeah? What's the point anyway if my efforts won't be recognized and acknowledged? I should stop complete…

Just to type down what I'm feeling: Seeing them make feel both happy and sad. Happy to see how pretty the city lights are at night. Happy to be able to see them as I listen to soft and bubbly music. But sad that I'm not with anyone to shar…

Before I start, this entry will contain spoilers for Doctor Strange 2 (and other MCU movies and/or TV shows), so if you haven't seen it yet, go do it! Or if you don't care about spoilers, then read along. You have been warned. The idea of …

God will remove people that will hold you back in life. People that will prevent you from growing with God. As if he knew what was up, and I was too naive and heartbroken to even realize and find the deeper meaning. If God knew why I loved…

Alternate reality. Seems like a big topic nowadays, especially for the MCU movies! Spiderman No Way Home! And an ending I won't spoil. But all that ties to what I've been thinking. The idea of what could be happening if a different choice …

Living my world in peace until the monster is releaed. She enters the scene with bad vibes that cannot be described. Guess she wants my attention? Then I'll play a game of prevention. A loud conversation will not improve the situation. I c…

I get that thought in my mind about my own worth. I know everyone has a different definition of it, but I wanna focus on my own. I do worry at times what others think of me. People will always judge me no matter what, and that's something …

I know I shouldn't be worried about it, but why do I worry about it? I feel silly by thinking about it all the time, but I can't help myself. My patience feels like it's running low. And everything that life has been throwing at me feels s…

The idea of the perfect anything. Computer, phone, home, car, or even job. But those things are temporary as those things can change with more technology available, or you may have found more interests in other things. But what about in a …

As much as I want to be wanted, it feels like I'm very undesirable for many reasons. Of course nobody is perfect and won't ever be, but I feel like I have so many flaws, done so many bad things, hurt people for my benefits, and more. First…

The feeling of knowing someone wants you for who you are. More than a friendship way, a romantical one. Knowing that the other person is mad about you. It's so satisfying and really motivating you to become a better person for her. The fee…

That one shot everyone gets. Wether it's good or bad, it's a choice we have to make in life. That choice can make or break your life. It's a scary thought, but exciting at the same time, hoping for the best if your decision was correct. An…

Trust is an important aspect in life and could bring so many benefits. Benefits that both parties can take advantage of. It can in so many ways, like financial growth, academic progress, business partners, and yes, romantic experience. I k…

Getting noticed by the person you want is extremely hard. I see others do it so easily, but it's all rocket science for me! The way others handle when they get noticed are like professionals, and they seem to get what they want. Man, I wis…

I thought they were supposed to make you feel good about yourself, especially from other people. In reality for me, I HATE being complimented. When people compliment me, I just say thank you, or whatever that's polite. But hell no, I don't…

"the reason or reasons one has for acting or behaving in a particular way." That's the definition from a Google search. And ever since I lost those reasons, my performance in stuff that I used to be good at has decreased. I'm no longer as …

I'm nobody to tell how to live life. I'm nobody to make choices for. I'm nobody to give an opinion. That's all I am, a nobody. Always had, and always will be. Nothing I do or say means anything. Perhaps it's for the best.

Things aren't always made to last. Objects, expensinve stuff, phones, anything really. What hurts the most is a person's bond and interest. Especially if that person meant a lot to you. That's the most painful thing to lose. It was somethi…

Lessons are needed in life, wether we like it or not. And when we being thought, sometimes it's not easy to admit your own fault. They're an amazing way to get better as a person after what you did. Can be a harmless mistake by accident, o…

Being unsure is a conflict because I don't know what to do or think. Mainly because I'm more concerned about my current emotions because make me look like a fool and maybe ruin stuff. I hate having those thoughts and need a way to vent thi…

Wanting something so badly, is something I go through many times. Wanting to play a new game that's not out yet, or craving a food that you eanna try out, or eat again for the first time in a while. But one thing I'm desiring more at the m…

Happiness is subjective. People get happy for different reasons. Alone, with a friend, or romantic partner. It's all different to everyone. One thing may be happy for one person, but it's boring or sad to the other. But what about seeing t…

I haven't been sleeping as early as I used to. So many things goes through my mind almost 24/7. Ever since that day, things changed so much so suddenly. And even at times, I don't know how to express that or explain to close people. It fee…